THE JAM OF PLANS

There are many time a day I think of making my life better. Every day is just like a Resolution day. I wake up with PLANS and I make a plan to stick to my plan and then I plan to finally stick to plan of my making the plan a success and finally I plan to plan again to not fail to plan. I fail and I plan and I finally fail to plan.

PLAN A: Wake up for fajr. My most of the days start when Fajr azaan is there and I plan to wake up that very moment, I add the notion WAKE UP BEENISH OR SEE THE WRATH and I promise myself I will in a few minutes, and just a second later when I finally wake up I get astonished how an hour has passed in between my these struggles. That very moment I feel I lost my very first battle of the day.

PLAN B: Eat a healthy breakfast. Since the notion of my relatives (though my friends claim I am ok) that “SHUSH CHAKH GAMECH” (You have turned weak like a meatless chicken) I plan up eating a healthy diet. I shop Kellogg’s, butter, eggs, dry fruits, juice and all the countless measures to overcome my malnutrition. Soon as I enter the kitchen to get the deal in my needful stomach, the very first morsel fills all the emptiness of it. It’s just like a struggle again to JUST EAT. Hence the theory of Food and weight relationship in my life

Food is directly proportional to weight and BEENISH’S WEIGHT being the universal constant. Well that counts for my loosing the second battle

PLAN C:  No more Gossips. Well that is what girls are famous for all around the world, till you don’t gossip your heart wanders here and there. I try not to but as soon as the days open up, someone’s makes up such a mistake one way or the other that it becomes the Gossip “Tumhay pata hae ki us nay kya kia”

“Kya sach mai”

“Haan”

“Halaaa”

Tumhay pata hae taken more lives than I guess any poison has taken. As I try to not gossip I somehow get a notion of it one way or the other. That’s my third battle and I lose it too.

PLAN D : No more negativity.I had all along in my life known that electron has the negative charge but what electron doesn’t know that BEENISH has more negative charge that any entity has ever had.I get the negativity from my genes that choose to be more on negative side and less on positive.Even if sun is bright, I think it is causing glares , even if birds chirp, I feel it is the noise, even if I laugh,I get the notion I will be sad again. Well planning to keep it aside has been a struggle itself and I lose it again.

PLAN E: No more LOG KYA KAHAY GAY.

From the day we got our senses to realize that we are humans, we got the notion that our life is not ours, it is the life based on what the society will decide for us. Girls can’t go into journalism, because people won’t approve, they can’t be lawyers or a speaker, and well these restrictions are good on one hand while on other hand it goes beyond the limit. I seek to live as I want but since a girl you have to think of being submissive and more home based.

The log kya kahay gay has taken up more dreams than any Amresh puri or any unemployment has done.